Daily Prompt: Silver Screen
Take a quote from your favorite movie — there’s the title of your post. Now, write!
I suppose in the end, the whole of life becomes an act of letting go, but what always hurts the most is not taking a moment to say goodbye. ~Life of Pi
Letting go…untangling threads of attachment and letting them slip – one by one and watch them disappear. Life remains an art of forming such a bond that never loses faith yet maintains the understanding of partings and goodbyes; even the unsaid ones.
A close friend of mine, died two days ago. Even though I had the knowledge of her intense suffering (because of cancer for several years) and the fact that death might claim her any moment; I am numb and restless. I am still learning how to let go; how to say goodbye and not hold back. It does not come naturally to me. For the past two days, I am sitting and staring at my screen for several moments before doing anything. Lapses of time stretch and my face distorts as if trying to understand something; though not sure what it is. Death has a way with its enormous silence and absolute authority – everything comes to an abrupt stop and any step ahead becomes unsure, paused and broken. An invisible thread tugs, form knots of questions and generates loops of possible answers. The mind searches for any sign of fairness, any shred of validity and reason to not feel the pain. In the background, life goes on – the job, the duties, the natural habits of eating and sleeping. A nagging anxiety remains.
I wish I can let go of her, her suffering and her painful memories. I wish I let her stay as an emblem of strength and draw inspiration but not feel frustrated with the unfairness of life towards her. Perhaps that is what letting go means – holding close to heart a possibility of a miracle and not letting the tragedy rip away your faith, your power to stay true to yourself and in harmony with everything else. Letting go is not to abandon but to live and look ahead with a sweet memory by your side.